I was wrong!

My uncle passed away! He was only 53 years old, he was ill but wow that close to christmas - that is a little depressing.

Yesterday I phoned my cousin (his daughter) to say I am sorry and ask for help and she was like"What why do I need help?" I asked if she was not informed - they had very rar Contact - and she said. "No what hapend?" And I had to tell her the truth. Damn that hurt. Now she had to break it to her mom. Then I phoned my dad - his brother - to ask why he did not phone her. He wasn´t informed either.

WHAT the hell??? I asked my friend (she is a nurse and her workmate was with him as it happens) if it is really true and she said sadly yes. They did not informed anyone because his girlfriend lives in his house and they search for a place to stay for her with a 24 hours watch - they have a bad feeling that she will harm herself when she finds out. I mean he died thuesday what the hell did they say to her where he is????

My dad was an ass!!!! He did not ask me about my wedding - he did not thank me for the Thank you card - he was like "Thanks for informing me about the death of my brother. have a nice evening. Goodbye." I never planned to phone him because he never showed to my wedding and did not once phoned me since may. What a father would do something like that??? I am angry as hell. I am not going to gratulate him for his 50 th. birthday next week. Arghhhhhhhhhhh

Hope you all are well

Have a nice weekend

Love Monika

My blood tests came back today and guess what????

I am perfectly well! Nothing. Not one bit out of norm. Issn't that great. My doctor thinks I was just overworked *shrugs*
my back is still hurting but the physical therapy is helping a lot. Yesterday I stabbed my foot and now I can hardly walk. Damn it. Most accidents happens at home. *Laugh*

I hope you are all fine. I am counting the days to work again. I've seen Twilight New Moon three times now. And god...Jacob Black - as young as he is - is very very hot!!!!! I am a little sad that there is not so much Edward/Bella in the movie but they stick close to the book. Now I can't wait for the Third movie to start filming.

Lots of love ant thanks for all your kind regards.

Moni

Step One
- Make a post (public, friends locked, filtered...whatever you're comfortable with) to your LJ. The post should contain your list of 10 holiday wishes. The wishes can be anything at all, from simple and fandom-related ("I'd love a Snape/Hermione icon that's just for me") to medium ("I wish for _____ on DVD") to really big ("All I want for Christmas is a new car/computer/house/TV.") The important thing is, make sure these wishes are things you really, truly want.

- If you wish for real life things (not fics or icons), make sure you include some sort of contact info in your post, whether it's your address or just your email address where Santa (or one of his elves) could get in touch with you.

- Also, make sure you post some version of these guidelines in your LJ, or link to this post (it'll be public) so that the holiday joy will spread.

Step Two
- Surf around your friendslist (or friends friends, or just random journals, or holiday_wishes/wish_list) to see who has posted their list. And now here's the important part:

- If you see a wish you can grant, and it's in your heart to do so, make someone's wish come true. Sometimes someone's trash is another's treasure, and if you have a leather jacket you don't want or a gift certificate you won't use--or even know where you could get someone's dream purebred Basset Hound for free--do it.

You needn't spend money on these wishes unless you want to. The point isn't to put people out, it's to provide everyone a chance to be someone else's holiday elf--to spread the joy. Gifts can be made anonymously or not--it's your call.

There are no rules with this project, no guarantees, and no strings attached. Just...wish, and it might come true. Give, and you might receive. And you'll have the joy of knowing you made someone's holiday special.

1. Anything from my amazon wish list http://www.amazon.de/gp/registry/registry.html?ie=UTF8&type=wishlist&id=W8MJSZQ8XE3S
2. Christmas Cards from all over the world. If you wanna send me a card PM me for my address
3. I love to have Twilight fanmixes. So if you want to do me a MIX I would be very happy.
4. Write me Dean/Sam college fic! I love college fics.
5. Write me a lovely (and long?) Fanfic for Twilight. Edward and Bella. Maybe where Edward is the bad guy (it must not have to do with vampires)
6. Gift cards would be awesome!
7. Like every year I am packing two presents for poor children. Maybe you could do something too.
8. Be the world a happy pleace!

What should I say? I was home today! Yeah my doctor decided hat I need to stay at home at least a week now.
I thought I can only stay at home this week but I fainted in her office. Yeah. Very embarassing. They all looked at me.
They took lots of blood and did an EKG for my heart.
I told her that I eat lots of stuff and loose weight. I mean I could eat lots of chocolate every day and I still loose weight. She was not amused and asked how long that goes on. I thought why not come clean and told her since a few month. I think she was disappointed that I did not talked to her last month when I was getting the new receipt. Hey I was scared and I wanted but I thought okay a few more pounds...maybe it will look nice. But I am up to 50 pounds already and I think that is enough.

Okay maybe I should talk about something that is not so depressing. I just wait for the blood results next week and try to stay our of trouble.

So I am counting the day. 8 days till New Moon is airing here!

I found a wonderful vid on youtube and feel like sharing it with you. It s a german song but very beautiful.
"You came and saved the world for me" If you want I could try to change the lyrics. Just leave me a message

I feel terrible. I just fired one of my trainees.

I mean he saw it comming cause he came always late and never was it his fault.

Yeah Yeah.

We spoke to the school this week and they told us he never showed up for the first lessons. But he always wrote it on his time shedule. So he got the money for those hours but wasn´t there. Mhmmmm how does that sound to you?

I have a big problem with someone lying to me.

AND he wasn´t even sad or anything. He just said OK and gone he was.

And it is stressful at work right now. One of my co workers is in holidays. One is ill with the swine flu and two are in school. So who is the only one there to work????? ME!!!!!


Oh and I am so sorry ala_tariel  that I did not let hear of me. I promise I try to get better in those things. Hugs you super tight.

And for my lovely...lovely sunrunnersioned  I hug you super tight. You know that you are the only one at the moment who knows that I still live. Hehehehe. And my husband is waiting for you to steal me so he can be my knight and save me! hahahahah Love you tons!

And to my wonderful friend july_v  Thank you so much for the fic and your lovely words. Don´t let the horrible guy get you down!!!! Force him to clean too!!!!

To all my wonderful friends! I know that I´ve been gone a long time. Marriage...work..kid...sometimes it is to much and I need to get a break. So I try to be better!!!!

Love you all!

Moni

This comes from my lovely my_sam_dean

1. Your Middle Name:  I have none
2. Age:  27
3. Single or Taken: Taken
4. Favourite Film:  Keinohrhasen
5. Favourite Song or Album: Hungry eyes
6. Favourite Band/Artist:  Beach boys
7. Dirty or Clean:  dirty
8. Tattoos and/or Piercings:  Pierced ears (nothing more)

9. Do we know each other outside of LJ?  No sadly
10. What's your philosophy on life?  Laugh whenever you feel like it!
11. Is the bottle half-full or half-empty? half-full
12. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest?  No!

13. What is your favourite memory of us? 
14. What is your favourite guilty pleasure? Eating all my sons “Kinderschokolade” I can´t stop when it comes to chocolate! 
15. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you: I drove my mother crazy because every time she and my dad went to buy groceries I taught myself how I can cook or bake! I nearly set the kitchen on fire (I started when I was 6). I loved watching my grandma cook and I wanted to create my own meal!

16. You can have three wishes (for yourself, so forget all the 'world peace etc' malarky) - what are they?  I wished for a new car, more time for myself and a private cook who can show me all the little details!

17. Can we get together and make a cake?  Absolutely! I love to bake!!!

18. Which country is your spiritual home?   Montana
19. What is your big weakness?  My son!
20. Do you think I'm a good person? 

21. What was your best/favourite subject at school? Best – German, Favorite – English

22. Describe your accent:  I speak without an accent!

23. If you could change anything about me, would you?  No never!

24. What do you wear to sleep? Nightshirts or nothing

25. Trousers or skirts? Skirts

26. Cigarettes or alcohol?  I don´t smoke so…yeah alcohol! (Self made Holunderblütenlikör – yummy!)
27. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together? (If you have no idea, just say something crazy, it'll entertain me!) We would dress up and flirt our way to the city and then we go to the highest building in the city and scream as loud as we can “WE ARE FANGIRLS! WE LOVE JARED AND JENSEN. ESPECIALY TOGETHER!!! WE ARE SLASHERS!” – You with me?

28. Will you repost this so I can fill it out for you?  Will do!

I emptied my camera....so here is what I have so far for my wedding!!!! We start with the Head!!!!

 It is for my hair...if you don`t know where to place it! 



 See ala_tariel This is the Tiara I bought!



This camera will be on the table and I want my guests to take pictures of themselves....I have ten of these...Do you think I should buy more???



These are Tissues...with our name on it and the wedding date...I think they are cute....just in case my grandma cries...or my mom or my aunts.... *LOL* - OR ME!!!!




Bad Quality but these are our wedding invitations.... The front...I tried several positions but the light is shining back so there is no better Quality! 



And here is what I will have under the wedding dress.....no ...not the  underwear... *LOL*





 AHhhhhhh I need to do something with my breast... and I need to find someone who can change two little things.....

So what do you think so far???

Yesterday I ordered my shoes....89,90 € - it is a shame to pay so much for some shoes but they were so comfy and they looked real good....

I know many of you wanted to see......







my dress......Yeah it finally arrived at my moms house....and oh my gosh it is beautiful!!!!





We needed half an hour to get me into that dress..*LOL*

Thank you so much ala_tariel  for the lovely package! I was very surprised...and you got me coffee!!! I LOVE coffee.  Kisses and hugs for you my friend!

*Snorts*

I just buyed it for my wedding!!!! OMG! I can`t believe it....It is from china! Hope everything is going to be okay and it will arrive safe! Oh I can post it here...cause Volkmar did not come here! Hahaha

I am back at work...that gives me time to tell what happend the last two weeks.

Hospital wasn`t that bad....just that I was the only one who sweated in the waking room. They said it was cold in there but damn...I felt like I was on fire. So I asked if they could take the blanked away.... they did not...they gave me some meds and then it was better.
Yes I could talk afterwards....and they did not damage any tooths. I was not in pain but they asked every day if I want something for that...I don`t like taking meds...so I denied everytime. After one full week with lovely roommates I could go home...and what happpend? The scar got infected...one night at home and my neck was swollen...Believe me the worst part was when they pushed against the scar to get everything out of the wound.
I felt very week on my legs....*LOL*
Now two weeks later I feel so good to even work again...but if it ever comes again...I will definitively not wait another 13 years. They needed to remove a lot (incl. a bone). I can feel where it was. It is strange...
But they are 100 % sure to get everything out.

Oh my mom has a new boyfriend. 8 years younger than her. She is happy and I hope she stays that way cause after I told her that we are going to get married she said: "but not with Christa" (Christa is the girlfriend of my father and she WAS my mothers friend). She did not say "congratulation" or "I am happy for you" ...nothing...just those 4 words.


My best girlfriend had a horrible last week. She was pregnant and he should come in 6 weeks but he could not wait those last 6 weeks ...so last week after her water broke she was in the hospital. They tried to hold him a little longer but then they could not find his heartbeat and they decided to get him via operation. Okay the worst part was that they did not do the painkillers right and cut her belly and she could feel everything. After she screamed so loud (believe me I`ve never heard someone screaming that loud) they took her to sleep. OMG I will never say again that giving birth to my son was horrbile. Kids name is Jeremy Luca...1757 g and 41 cm. God he is sooooo little.

ckll did a post to know her friends better. I repost this and lets see who is going to answer it.

1. Can you cook? Yes and I love it! I can do an amazing Tiramisu (Yummy)
2. What was your dream growing up? A book writer
3. What talent do you wish you had? I wish I could sing!
4. Favorite place? Home
5. Favorite vegetable? Carrots
6. What was the last book you read? Sophie Kinsella (do we know each other)
7. What zodiac sign are you ? Aquarius
8. Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? None …oh wait does my ears count?
9. Worst Habit? Chew on my fingernails when I am nervous
10. Do we know each other outside of lj? No?
11. What is your favorite sport? Dude….sport??? icehockey?!
12. Negative or Optimistic attitude? Optimistic
13. What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?  Chat about Jared and Jensen
14. Worst thing to ever happen to you? Beeing nearly raped
15. Tell me one weird fact about you: I love to sit in the dark and pretend to be with other people
16. Do you have any pets? Two rabbits
17. Do you know how to do the macerana? YESSSS hahaha and it is so much fun!!!!
18. What time is it where you are now? 12:10 (and I am eating right now)
19. Do you think clowns are cute or scary? Scary clowns….scary clowns
20. If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be? Full lips!
21. Would you be my crime partner or my conscience? Crime partner! So if you ever want to break into the Padalecki/Ackles household…count on me!
22. What color eyes do you have? Green
23. Ever been arrested? No but only because they knew my mom
24. Bottle or Draft? What???? Bottle I think.
25. If you won $10,000 dollars today, what would you do with it? Have a big marriage party!
26. What kind of bubble gum do you prefer to chew? Peppermint
27. What 's your favorite bar to hang at? “Brauhaus” in Köthen
28. Do you believe in ghosts? Yes I do!
29. Favorite thing to do in your spare time? Read and watch movies
30. Do you swear a lot? Not anymore (since I have a little son who loves to repeat everything I say!)
31. Biggest pet peeve? Racism
32. In one word, how would you describe yourself? Lovely
33. Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you? Yes I will and I expect you do do it!!!! *LOL*

So tomorrow is the big day....I go check into the damn hospital and get myself an operation the day after. Why I have to be at the hospital tomorrow....I don't know...maybe to run some tests...
I am more and more panicked...but I do hope everything will be okay in the end...
So if you don`t hear from me in ...lets say....20 days...then something didn't go right...
Love you all

Moni

sunrunnersioned 

May you have a wonderful day and lots of fun!



We were amazing today! It was so cold but we played Cinderella with fun and joy and we even got 77 € from the crowd for our playing...it goes to the kindergarten. We were AWESOME. As soon as I get pictures I will upload them. Oh my god...me with a beard!


And why is it that nobody ever mentioned Torchwood before????

OMG I can`t believe i did a post in another live journal than mine... Here it is:

http://community.livejournal.com/wish_list/54687.html?view=266655#t266655


So what happend so far?

We celebrated Roberts second birthday last week. He was so excited. He got too much toys...many books an awesome lot of chocolate.... and a train ticked. He loves the train. At first he was afraid to get into it but then he loved it...he even dreamed of it at night. *LOL*

I catched a cold again...does anyone know what I can do to get better? I am drinking hot citrus and milk with honey (urghhh) I hate honey.

Only 4 days till I play the father in "cinderella" for a play in the kindergarten. Every year the parents play a fairy for the children. So this year I could not say no and got a role...a small one but damn it....I am nervous. But me and the other parents had so much fun so far.

My two best friends are fighting again. I can`t believe it...Every year the same...Just for a small missunderstanding....I want them to talk again...!

I am not better - still not sleeping home alone -  but I have hope!!!

Oh yes and the next big step would be in february...my operation....I am afraid...they need to cut into my neck...the doc said they would go through the old scar and he wants to make it smaller but arghhh not talking for three weeks....

So after reading 1172 mails this week and trying to comment to every entry I just starting to read my lovely sunrunnersioned entries (I am saving them for quit evenings with a glass of wine) and holy fuck you need to read this fic!!!!


http://catherinewinner.livejournal.com/45221.html?thread=354213

It is the first chap of 6 chapters. And I do hope she will hurry and update the next soon!!!


My mother called me today from Tunis! She is having a wonderful vacation ( I gave her a week of vacation in Tunis for her 50th birthday).

So far everything is going to be fine!

OH MY GOD!!!!! I can`t believe it!!!! I wasn't online over a week and I missed the first epi of Supernatural!!!! ARGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

I was on vacation with my family and it did me soooooo good! Everything is fine. I even drove to the hospital in Halle with one of my pregnant friends. (And I was not freaking out) She is expecting a girl and they said the baby is too small. But it is going to be okay. They will arrange the birth in two weeks and she will have 2900 g maybe even 3000 g. We hope for the best.

So what happened in the first epi? Anyone wants to tell me something? You can spoil me. I will search for the DL link and watch it this week with one of my girlfriends but come on....tell me...

Kisses to all of my friends.